There are many truths in life.
Some are mere philosophical details of everyone's life, generalizations that for the most part only the old or experienced can pinpoint but are always part of our subconscious common knowledge, those little tidbits of information that make you sit and think, "Hey, I totally get that. That is so true."
Others you can only find on those cold mornings smoking cigarettes on an apartment front porch with someone you never knew was a good friend of yours.
For the first time in years, I felt like I was actually standing beside someone, like someone had really taken notice of me and that I existed, like for a moment my own reality coincided with someone else's.
Some of the truths I discovered during this morning were:
You will never be embarrassed by or hate your own unique and uncommon hobbies quite like you will at the front counter of a pawn shop.
You will never love a friend as much as you will when you reminisce about them to someone.
Personal interest is the most common driving force in the world. It is in fact the only driving force in the world. Those who can surpass this have either performed a miraculous feat, are lying to themselves about what they've done, or have fooled everyone else into thinking they've surpassed it. This is not a bad thing.
The world is built on infinite, minuscule evils that we will never comprehend. Our lives depend on these evils. To advance yourself, at some point in life, you will (either by your knowledge or not) be taking an opportunity from someone else.
Know for a fact that NOBODY has a right to tell you that your problems aren't big enough to be depressed about. Your father may be a bad ass and be completely OK with going outside and shooting someone in the head and yet you may not be able to touch a gun. Your problems are your own, and you must deal with them. Once you've overcome them, you learn from them. Anyone who tells you their problems are bigger than yours (or that anyone's are bigger than yours) probably don't have enough to worry about in life or want sympathy for their own issues and are too embarrassed to ask for it. You are you. They are them. Their problems, experiences, and methods of solving problems are theirs and not yours, they may not work for you.
There is ALWAYS someone out there with problems like yours. Keep in mind that you are different people. Don't go looking for a piece for your puzzle in someone else's box, but keep in mind that they might have a piece you don't that they're willing to share.
When the world is perfect, it won't be.
We could sit all night and talk about solving the world's problems but it doesn't mean we can solve the world's problems.
Being lost and depressed is no reason not to strive for something. If you can at least get some work done in the way of moving in ANY direction, be proud. Don't give up. Don't quit. If I can't be there to have your back, SOMEONE, SOMEWHERE WILL. Don't forget that. This person will be there when you don't know they're even around. This is not a motivational statement. This is a fact. You just have to know where to look to find this person, and sometimes you have to know not to look at all.
Talk to people, even when there is no reason. You will never understand the infinite good a random conversation with a stranger can provide until you experience the full force of it. This is not to say that every random conversation will end in something positive, but if you're at rock bottom there's no reason not to give it a shot.
Don't bother holding back. Say what you have to. Say what you need to. Say what you want to. It is your right as a person. If you have something to say to someone, SAY IT. The outcome can only change your situation if you let it. Just remember that your right to speak freely ends where the other guy's fist begins.
Be courteous, but don't be walked on. Be frank, but don't be rude. Be smart, but don't be a know-it-all. Be wise, but don't be a wise-ass. Always ask why, but don't do it to the point of ruining a good conversation.
I don't know who I'm quoting, so forgive me, but, "To be smart is to know a tomato is a fruit. To be wise is not to put it in a fruit salad."
Don't waste time searching for happiness. You won't find it. Happiness finds you, in ways you will never understand, at times you least expect it. It will almost never be the Hollywood fairytale ending, you won't have a miraculous and amazing life, but you WILL learn something, or gain something, even just for a moment. Don't lose it. Ever. Cherish that 5 second moment of slight entertainment or half-hearted amusement. It can make a huge difference in the long run.
Life sucks. It's full to the brim with shitty experiences, bad decisions, and general unhappiness. Sometimes the best thing you can hope for is to settle for being alive. The status quo isn't so bad. At least you're used to it. Keep going on the level you're at until you find a way to advance.
Good conversation and a nice drink could save the world if there wasn't so much to say and too much (or too little) to drink.
Don't give yourself too much credit when something good happens, it will only make things worse when the shit hits the fan.
Don't give yourself too much hell when the shit hits the fan, it will only make the good moments bittersweet.
That's about all for now. You people have a good day.